So i'm dating this guy that I don't really have a crush on... We're just friends, but I'm thinking maybe I could someday like him more... Right now I feel strange. I'm not sure I should be doing this, if I'm even ready to date... I thought I was but when I got home tonight I just don't really feel like it...
Maybe it's just the newness and having only ever dated one person prior to this, it could just be jitters... Right? I just feel sick like i'm doing something horribly wrong. What if I ruin our friendship because I just want to "see how it goes"?
Everything feels so screwed up and I really don't think it should feel this way... Right now, at this moment? This is all the last thing I want.... The people judging me, looking at me differently, my own feelings... I just want to crawl under a rock... And never again come back out...
